Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
You're on to me, on to me, and all over...
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.

~sara barellis - gravity~

Vicious Circle

You are back in my life...why?

Are we doing this because of "Love" or are we just comfortable at what we do.

Sometimes you read and dig into things you really wish you didnt. I wish i never found out how much you hated me....I wish I didnt dig so deep to relieve my curiosity...did i really need to know.

But now that I do. It hurts.

We've both blamed each other for so much...so why are we here? Why are we doing this again? I dont think we trust each other enough to be where we are. We both are constantly waiting for the next argument or problem or fight.

Do we even love each other anymore or are we just caring deeply.

Are friends and family have heard so much of it. That if we even made this the slightest public it would shatter and fall.

I find tears in my eye out of frustration and confusion. I dont think you really ever knew me. I just lead you to believe that ...this person is me.

What are we doing? Why are we doing this? Why am i setting my self up for pain and distress.

On each of our respectable sides, they are through with this chapter. Though we continue to reopen it over and over and over again. If this continues how will we continue. I know people shouldn't have an input to our lives and our relationship but REALLY! i think things are not normally this extreme. I think we are both setting our selves up...

I hate the feeling of uncertainty and yet I realize I'm feeling it more and more these days. Nothing in life is concrete but this ...this seems to be in complete rubble and shambles.

I cry at the possibilities of pain.

What am I doing?